I know I have not been good at keeping by blog updated for awhile. I have been working through a personal issue and haven't had the time nor energy to put into writing anything.
A couple of Sunday's ago, Jon arrived at the Breakfast table proclaiming that 2009 had been one of the best years for him in ministry. As his enthusiasm ran over, I began to think about how hard the year 2009 had been for me. Lots of changes, Lots of new adjustments being made and Lots of energy being needed to do all the things that I had committed to do. All that being said I came into this time of Christmas feeling drained and empty.
That same weekend Jon and I saw the movie "The Christmas Carol" It was a cute version of the old Dickens Classic but what drew my heart in that movie was the Christmas Carols being played. At the very end of the movie they played "Joy to the World" As I sat there singing along in my head these words just spoke to me. "Let every heart, prepare Him room." As the tears began to flow down my cheeks, the Lord began a healing within my soul. He knew that the circumstances around me would not change, I would still be grieving, tired and drained in my physical body, but that my spirit would go through a transformation to prepare my heart for Him.
I have felt like Mary as of late, pondering things is my heart, knowing that the Lord is still on the throne and still is in charge of everything that happens in my life. The simplicity of the birth of Jesus could have been and probably was ignored by so many. But Mary saw God's plan come to life that cold winter's night in Bethlehem so many years ago. She saw my savior be born.
Now as I have been preparing my heart for Him, I also see how the Lord has been totally involved in each and every thing that I have experienced. He see's the total plan and like Mary, I need to be watching and waiting for that plan to come to life!
It is my prayer that the Lord will continue to work within me to complete His plan and that I would be a willing servant, spent out for Him, knowing that He is in control and He will complete everything He has promised!
I do not share this with you, for you to feel sorry for me, but that you might take a look at what Christ is doing in your life, and prepare your heart for Him this Christmas.
Merry Christmas!
Deb
